I am inching my way forward with acceptance that our marriage is over. Some days it's okay. Some days it's harder. But overall I see the pattern move more towards "okay" and I am sad that I take comfort in that.
I remember this feeling. It was about 6 months post MO and I started to regain my life back. Like, really regain my life back. When GAL'g stopped feeling forced. I woke up early one morning and I sat outside and just cried. It was a weird feeling ... a sense that I would be OK ... and the sadness that comes with that.
I am still in the holding pattern, but I am OK with that as well. Acceptance does not mean giving up. It's just accepting there is nothing you can do to fix it.
There has been a definite shift in your posts of late. They are more hopeful and optimistic for your future. Maybe you needed that little bump in the road to realise that you would be OK.
Whilst I like this take no prisoners Yail, To me a [censored] queen is someone who has hardened her heart. The Yail I am getting to know is articulate and clever but more importantly, she is thoughtful, compassionate and kind. She has a beautiful heart worthy of being loved by someone equally clever and equally kind.
I appreciate your edits on my email - they spoke a lot about how thoughtful, articulate and kind you are (and also that you are in the academic field :)). TBH I am still waivering about sending it.
