10 days W has slept in the living room. Yesterday we had house painters working on the outside of our building. She came home from work mad about traffic and decided paint fumes were no good for D2 and too cold to open windows. They both spent the night at her parents' place. I got together with my friends next door.

W is off from work next week and has multiple things planned with D2 to which I apparently am not invited. This is not how I want to live. Trying to ride it out and focus on what I must, but part of me wants it to get better or just end.

I spoke to my uncle for his birthday. A few years ago he stayed with us for a while. He said he heard we are having trouble and that the idea I was controlling toward her was laughable, that she has many good qualities but is the most controlling person he knows. It helped somewhat to be reassured I'm not remembering everything wrong.


M 44, W 32
T 10, M 8
D 2
Oct '18: Fantasy affair with OW1 (yes, W)
Feb '19: Inseparable from new lesbian BFF
Still live together but a lot of tension