Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Looks like I will be single. it was garbage the first time around. Seems like I can't DB very well.

Interview at Fermi went well. Now to wait to see what comes of that. I'd have to move anyway...

Got the news from my L after the interview. I stopped at my church after and prayed, cried and talked with the minister. First two by myself. Feel like this ain't worth continuing despite all those in my tag line... because the second on the list want's out.

DB is for the left behind spouse... what if the spouse doesn't want to be left behind? Yeah... not our choice is it?

I wish my condition matched my heart...