A totally idyllic day today. Drove Eldest to an activity and spent the afternoon outside in brilliant sunshine with dog and Youngest. Some fun and ice cream and lovely weather. Am determined to enjoy as much of my time as I can - I had such a miserable marriage for such a long time, and ignored all the wonderful things in my life that were just within arms reach and had nothing to do with H at all. I can have days like this no matter what is going on in my marriage.
I have a stinking cold and H rang this afternoon to talk to me about his working arrangements, heard that I was sick, and so came over this evening and has cooked tea for us all. I'm in bed watching a film with Youngest and i can hear H and Eldest chatting happily in the kitchen. I was pretty tired so I am grateful for the offer. I also know it is more comfortable for H to see Youngest here rather than at the house where he is lodging, and he wouldn't see Eldest at all unless he came here, so I guess it suits him too. H has also said he's solidified his working arrangements for next month and so there's no problem with me going away for those few days that I wanted at all. So I have that to look forward to. I'm going to take the full week - I will take the dog with me but he can be in charge of both kids and his work for that time - and I'm going to treat it as a time to recharge and retreat and concentrate entirely on myself.
For now I am going to get to sleep as early as I can, expect nothing at all, and hope that my cold is better tomorrow so I can take Eldest out to a nice new dog-friendly coffee shop that has opened up near us.
