But my new discoveries on her diary has thrown me into shock. There are horrid details of her making the moves on this guy and their truly sickening positions. Maybe married couples who know each other for years might venture into these positions and even then it would be out there stuff. I cant get this out of my head.
This is why snooping is a bad idea. Even after you separate, and D. And move on with someone else, knowing these things will haunt you. Stay in IC. Work through this stuff, otherwise you will carry this baggage into your next relationship.
One last question, to make sure you are really done. Hypothetical: what if this wasn't an affair? What if this was a diary from when she was dating an ex-bf, and you read the same things? Would your attitude and perspective be different? I fear you are reacting to this emotionally, and when that subsides, and you are D'd, you will look back and think you could have forgiven her and moved forward if she was willing to recommit. Once you burn it to the ground it is burnt to the ground.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
