I am hoping someone will read this new post on my thread here and offer any ideas / insight on how I may proceed.
Even though I originally wanted to save my marriage I now want to burn it to the ground. I am done. My psychologist told me 4 months was a good run btw on my efforts of being upbeat , detaching.
But my new discoveries on her diary has thrown me into shock. There are horrid details of her making the moves on this guy and their truly sickening positions. Maybe married couples who know each other for years might venture into these positions and even then it would be out there stuff. I cant get this out of my head. She has found a house and is moving out - with our son - so these are the last days we spend time together.
She acts all saintly, and I have not told her what I know. In the past she had told me of 5% chance of us in the future.
I want to tell her when I last see her (even though as parents we will always talk due to kid) that there is not one in a million chance that we will ever rekindle. Should I? I can sense the answers coming that it wouldnt be necessary. Thats what I would answer to another forum member. Leaving is enough I think. But as I am in this one I would love a fresh perspective take on his.
B.D in December 2018 Physical Affairs discovered in April 2019 Divorced May 2019 H (me) 49 W (her) 29