I am 95% sure I want to D. I discussed incident with IC, and we both agreed I should be making decision from strength and not fear. I will hold back on filing. I'm not waiting around though for 2 or 3 years for her to figure it out, or her life and what she wants to do with it separated... I thought about my trust issues and deal breakers, and even though I'm adamant about it being my line in the sand, it didn't make sence even to myself logically after I really thought it through from all broad angles and possibilities.
Ive been daydreaming today of GAL activities. Im going to ramp it up. I have asked W for documents. She is still under the impression I am filing. I'm going to sit on it for now. Ironically we are getting along a lot better, talking more, and she is initiating convo. I think she is temp checking me. I wasn't implying terms of recon AS, I just wanted to make a list just in case for future, addressing living conditions, and trust issues. I wasn't planning on presenting them to her. WM i know they have been hurting far longer than we have, and we ate just getting a taste. I've had the same discussion with W before, and I try to be aware of that. Maybe THEY need to communicate that better, instead of just ruminating on it for years and BD ing us, and listing everything they think has been wrong with the M. But we are just supposed to "get it"
As far as friends and family I love them to death, and even look forward with hanging with them in future, but I really don't care what people think of me. Ill welcome their thoughts and opinions and considerations openly, but other people's oppinion of me is none of my business including my WAW. I've always been a "lone wolf" in that sense.
