Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Okay, she sent me a text at the end of her lunch. Said I can't accept the settlement. Need to move on. This is more cost. Simple... let go. after 31 years she didn't get anything. Sorry but this means you are greedy.

Summarized her text for illustration.

I responded... yeah probably wrong but too late.
Reminded her about paying off her car and trips to the Philippines without question because she was (and is) my wife. Feel unappreciated. I did those things because I wanted to.

So I am proceeding with getting off her insurance. My own phone plan and splitting the insurance.

For a very long time my parents both worked. Both of us worked. Maybe my MiL didn't have to when W was growing up. I don't know. Was never brought up. Like a lot of stuff.

When Mrs. Turbine first got here she liked to watch Dallas and Falcon Crest. Not realistic on several levels. Did she expect that for us?

I know she wanted us to retire from the Navy. I got tired of being gone even when the ship was in port. Three section duty with duty weekends every third. Which meant From Saturday morning to Monday evening before I would be home again. Big deal... Friday night off. We had kids and her Mom. I have few memories of the townhouse we rented or the apartment. That isn't a life. Not a married life.

Now she is done and wants out. When we should have been us.

Well... having to pay her own insurance will be a shock. Along with all the other expenses. Unless she has been lying about seeing someone. She could. I still doubt it. But hey I have been wrong about stuff before.

Still love her... still... after the hurt she gave in kind. I'm sorry Mrs. Turbine. More than I can tell you.