Thank you Dillydaf from another W's perspective. Although I'm making copies of things to file, and have said that I will file. I know I am going to appear incongruant if I dont. But I will sit on it for now. You are right. I have lot of work to do, and little time put in and resources. I can see how what I'm doing could be a controlling issue. I just truly have no incentive to go any further with the M. Im really not threating D. I actually want to file because I have no incentive left. But I do need more patience and time to see if we can heal correctly as individuals first. I don't think R is possible at this time, based on current changes and past behaviors, and trust. But I do need to give it more time, so i have no regrets.
