Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Didn't go to the gym. Didn't do any body weight stuff last night either.

Been reading a little more MAFM/WAFV. I believe Mrs. Turbine would benefit from reading or listening to that. I know... can't fix her. Would have to be her choice.

Been reading DejaVu posts. Still trying to catch up and be current. Others too.

So I was checking my email. Got a reply to a veteran's program at Fermi. Taking some time off to attend that. Definitely a better use of my skills. I know soo much and feel under-utilized. Granted the boost I had last week was good. Need to prove something. Yeah, I could jam gears. My buddy in Ca. does and as he says it ain't rocket science.

Mrs. Turbine still has so much emotional weight on that see-saw. Yeah, I control that balance.

This morning I said good morning to her and got a matching response. Declined offer to get the banana and orange for her. Okay, just offering since I was handling the fruit.

How on earth do we let go?

We can get along. We have had good times and bad. I just don't et it. Maybe I am not supposed to. Still have too much time in my head at work. Some thing new to change that? We shall see. Okay God, I may not have my lesson learned yet so can I get the God's plan for Dummies chapter right now?