Guys I'm done. I'm sorry. I've told myself I shouldn't make this decision based off emotions and I don't have to make this decision today. But im done. As much sense as this may not make to some people, I cannot get past not being able to trust the W ever again as far as living with her again, and selling the house which I am under enormous pressure, which I am not ready to do, especially on her timeline.
Every thing else I am open to, but I don't think my W could ever earn my trust back as far as living together again if I sell this house, although the house is meaningless. Feeling that I'm being forced to make a financial and living decision that I don't want to make breeches my trust as man, and it's permenant.
I can be friends, I can be friendly, we can work together to get done what we need to get done, I just can't get past the trust issues that have been breached about living together again in the future. Even if we both made major changes. I still would never be able to trust living with her in future. If all this effort has to be made torwards separating, and not torwards reconciling, then im done, I'm not going to waste my years sitting in limbo land approaching 40 yrs old. I have no patience left to hold on anymore. I won't be plan b, and I won't be able to ever trust living W my wife ever again. I've made my declaration as of tonight. We are both on board as far as the D. We still have to figure out housing and whatnot over the summer. How and who is going to pay for things. Im going to start shopping for mediators this week.
I'm out for a while and will let everyone know any major updates as time goes by. Thank you for all your help and wonderful insight.
