All in all a good week. Very busy. Happy Hour Friday night was fun. It was a group from our gym. The mgmt sponsors one once a month. Great group, and I'm making friends with some of them - other than just being friendly during class. One guy (who is married and I know his wife as well), mentioned that there is someone in the group who is attracted to me. I made it clear I "wasn't there" yet, but am always open do going out with the group as friends. I think I know who it is, and he's nice, but I'm not attracted to him. Still, it was nice to hear.
1. Why to MLCrs NOT file for divorce. They don't want to work on themselves, they don't want to work on their marriage, they've moved out, and probably have an OW or OM. All these apply to my H. He even is still staying in temporary airbnbs. I don't know what his plans are at the end of the month, but I think he is looking for additional temp housing. I asked him when I found out about OW why he didn't file for D. He said "I don't know what the right thing to do is." So, maybe he just doesn't want to be the bad guy and he's waiting for me.
Anyway, if anyone has insight, I'd like to hear it.
2. I'm also having a hard time with the fact that I'm faithful to my vows, and H has an OW. Isn't this a bit of cake-eating? Aren't I almost condoning it since I haven't filed for D? I almost feel like I'm saying (by my silence), it's o.k. for you to see her. When you decided what you want to do, you let me know. I'm waiting.
I'm getting on with life, have a full life, and feel fairly content and happy, so why does it sometime feel like I'm still waiting? Is that the message I'm sending H?
Anyway, these are thoughts for the day. Back to projects. I've cleaned most of the house today, re-covered a lampshade, and now am starting on those dresses for the mission trip. Keeping busy!
