Not sure if much have changed since last time that i have posted.
Ex still behaving as a d@@@, still not paying nothing trough is daughter, His aim is to squeeze me financially so i just give in to his terms....good luck. He is actually achieving the opposite, he is giving me strength.
He send me a new deal, not ideal but something that actually its worth it to try to negotiate. At this point i just want to get him out of my life. I have lost any kind of respect for him and do not wish to be fighting for the next 2 years. I want to move on with my life, i deserve better then him. He is texting and calling me almost everyday and using his daughter as an excuse to talk with me (about the deal), so far i have ignore and refuse to engage any any conversation directly with him....we have lawyers.
He still not respect boundaries, last time i have ask him to do the swap (daughter) in a public space just to see how would feel like. 1st question when he saw me ( i was looking quite nice). where are you going? 2nd question: do you want to go for a coffee?
Hello!!???
Last time that i saw him, the only thing that came to my mind was, who his this pathetic BOY, no attraction, no tears, no hopes.
I ask him not to come to the house (specially because he is not paying for anything anymore). He text asking if he could come, i said no, and he still came. Legally i can not do anything, the house is also his
Like my therapist says, i should not get upset about his behavior. He did not respect me for the last 5 months why should he change his behavior now? just let it go and expect the worse.
i am start to see the old me. Confident, independent, resilient and happy.
My friends and family have been fantastic. I am alone in a far away country but have had fantastic support. Can not thank enough my family for all the emotional support but also for the financial support, otherwise i could not fight him for a better deal.
I really click with the "new" guy, but i am with my walls up. He is very nice, but still dealing with his own pain, very recent separation for him.
He is confuse in some points, like why someone like me would want to be with him? In his view i am young, very attractive, when financial settlement finish i would be ok. Why him? and not someone younger, better looking and richer? He is afraid that i would be interested in him because i am looking for a good dad for my daughter. He is a very good dad for his kids, and i can not deny that i found that i plus. But i also like who he is, he is hurting and is not afraid to show it. He is not trying to impress me and lie, he is showing his positive points but also his weakness and he is not afraid to do it.
He is very kind, funny, honest and we can talk for hours very easily. somehow feels like we know each other for ages, we are very comfortable in each other company.
Psychically its a bit strange, i never looked at 48 year old before as a possible sexual partner, but he is attractive (but looks like a 48 year old), lol. He is very fit, very outdoorsy (fishing, hunting, sports, motorbikes, etc) so he is in very good physical shape. I am fit, but different kind of fitness.
I have try to go slowly, dont want to be a rebound relationship, dont want to be a trophy "girlfriend", but also do not want to see him as my hero and the guy that can solve all my problems. Both of us have kids (his teenagers, me a 4 year old) so is just not all about us.
He knows that he need to learn to be happy with himself, and he is doing all the right things. Therapy, spending quality time with his kids and friends, exercising, not drinking, etc.
I just need to enjoy the moment and dont think to much about the future.
But should i date other guys? its to soon for me? One part of me do not want to go to the date scene, would be easy for me to get "laid". i am pretty sure that i would find guys that would want to impress, expensive dinners, nice hotels, maybe a few presents....but how many of that guys just want sex? how many of them would be married? or narcissist? how many frogs would you "have" to kiss to find a nice guy?
