Attracting the WW back ?

[gzabetas]

Update on my status


We have met with our lawyers and my wife wants to go for an amount that I cant pay with my current income.
Here in Greece the law favors the mom so concepts like joint custody are foreign. Only the mama can raise her boy.

The lawyer meeting was my first disheartening event. Its strange to see how far detached the wife is. Calculating the monetary data. Her lawyer insulted me, making it seem like I was not willing to work for more money.
Meanwhile I had more degrees than anyone in that room. Top 5% at DePaul etc. My arguments and sarcasm were lost on that crowd. They only listened to their own arguments and when I shot them down they simply repeated them as if I didnt understand... It was depressing..

So I may not be able to pay this money and may have to go to jail one day if I dont pay.

My only sin was picking up this little girl years ago and educating her, loving her, listening, giving her a kid that she wanted. She was a mess psychologically when I met her, but damn it, once again I didnt run.
The boyscout in me thought he could help. Might I add this is the 2nd time in my life I pick up damaged goods.
Absolutely never again. I mean it. I have risked my sanity and life on broken people.

My good engineer friend told me the other day that when you pick up weak people to help/love them, their self hatred is enough in them that it will cause them to hate you too for valuing them in the first place.
Similar to Jesus being punished for trying to help(I remember the musical where Judas sings "And they will hurt you when they find they're wrong"). People expect miracles that they want and not what you can offer.

Part II

New discoveries. Even more depressing (follows)


We keep talking about the OM in this forum. but I only had hints up to now.

Today when she was gone, I saw she had left her purse wide open on the table.

I snooped. Guilty. Found notes of her with interactions with OM.
Little diaries that women keep about how they made them feel. What he whispered in her ear.
Plus there details of events that pointed to it being real, with a real OM.
Little drawn hearts on the page with her love words.

You always think it cant happen to you. I mean we were watching Unfaithful the other night on TV and she didnt even flinch. How good we are at hiding our sins.

I still havent revealed what I know.


When she moves into her new place I will leave printouts of these on her new floor or walls.