It’s up to you now . Track down coach’s posts on what is attractive for a man . Strength , generosity ( not just money , emotionally too) , intelligence, PATIENCE, understanding, caring, compassion, communication, direction,stable , leading. Get your mom or dad or friend to help with the dog . I want to see you as a success story , you can do it . The quicker you can get control of YOURSELF, the quicker and easier things will turn around. Set some non R related goals , get ‘em done .