Hi man. Ease your mind brother. It´s some how part of the dance. There is no swich to change feelings. And there´s a long way to transit. Adiction is adiction so those feelings come and go. Remember there are cycles everywhere...just let see where you both are going with time.
I agree with Steve, you need to subtle show her your self-determination, your actual identity. Again, it´s a theme of respect basically. Show her where you are standing. YOU are moving forward.
She needs to do some work on herself Lost. And it takes time. That´s why I´m so thankful to have found DB and this forum. It gave me the tools to confront my adictions. It gave me wind for my willness (thank you Steve!). It gave me light. Thank you DBers! Lost, figure a way to help W there, read what Sandi wrote some days ago. No pressure there.
IMHO Steve´s last post is a headshot. From the 1st to the 5th paragraph. All the things I was going to tell you are posted there. Even the lies we make to our APs to make things smoother... Keep that post with you (thank you again Steve).
You have the strength to wait for stronger winds. They will come.