Journaling....

Dinner with Facebook guy has been put off a day because he owed his ex a childcare day. Personally, I’m okay with it. He’s been a bit off the last few days and last night he sent me a couple of texts that gave me an idea of why. We were talking about rather innocuous things when all of a sudden, he texts me that he thinks he might like to live somewhere different in the wintertime (somewhere hot) which is probably why he hasn’t gotten into a “relationship” yet. He also said it is why he hasn’t really met anyone (other than me and one other person) and only connected as friends...that he thinks he is too unstable right now and he’s been afraid. I basically just validated his feelings and didn’t try to add much to the conversation. Reading between the lines, he was either warning me or explaining his behaviour up until now or telling me that his friendship with me is potentially throwing a wrench into his plans. This is in stark contrast to the guy who told me he is “just living life in the moment”...seems to be that is the exact opposite of what he is doing. I figure if it requires a discussion, it would probably best be had in person when I see him on Thursday. And I thought I overthink things.

Texted with my 38 year-old “boy toy” yesterday. Still haven’t met him...lol. He’s pretty straight forward and funny and much less complicated than Facebook guy. I figure I should meet him soon since we’ve been chatting for the past month. It hasn’t escaped me that if I ended up dating someone with the same name as my STBXH’s affair who is around the same age, it would be somewhat ironic...lol.