Hi, I learned that OM kind dumped her and was asking to be friends. She was going thru withdrawal so last Friday while as gone to one of our coworkers wake she went to casino with couple friends and acquaintance. She managed to get that drunk that made out in a car with one of the guys. It just disgusting to me. She even texted one of her girlfriends that she did not feel shame I believe even her friend was surprised. Of course she does not know that I know.
I said that she is responsible for her own federal and state taxes as I filed married separated. I also learned that she talked to a lawyer. She complained to her sister that I was unfriendly because I did not file joint taxes and she is thinking about divorce and she mentioned that its time to tell her mother that we having marriage problems. Our communication is limited to I "say good day how are you" and her response is the same. I am polite with her like with a neighbor. On Sunday I initiated talk about paying off land loan and filing taxes and I told her that my coworkers suicide made me think about this in limbo marriage and not sure how long I will last. I said to her that this behavior is like teenager and it's time to grow up. I said there info online which could help her with this kinda behavior. After that I kinda realized that this probably won't hit her as she thinks that this is how reality looks like I also learned that she saw a shrink and going to see again.
I signed up on couple dating sites and went with couple woman just to practice dating. Nothing serious I did not share this info with her. At the moment I am not even sure if it's just better to be the first to file for divorce or see where all this goes. I am trying to look at this as experiment and be an observer. I just feel kind a sadness that the person can fall that low. I guess the anger and range is gone just acceptance. I still check detachment thread which helped me tremendously.
