My Story Pt 2

[Manta]

Journaling 02/04/2019:

It's almost a month since my last update.

It's been a good month for me personally. Professionally, Work is going well, with my employer's going with my team's proposals for the new long term strategy, which will dynamically transform the IT Infrastructure for years to come.

Personally, I have had a lot of fun in the last few weeks. I have been out with my close friends and socializing, while really enjoying my hobbies and taking up new interests. I went on a holiday last week on my own to Spain. I stayed in a beautiful hotel, by the sea. I didn't realize how exhausted I was until I finally got to unwind. The week was relaxing, good weather and delicious food. It was wonderful and I'm glad I did it. While at times it was lonely, seeing other couples and people asking me "are you here on your own?". I just said I was separated and taking a break. Lot's of people were very kind to me and wanted to spend time with me. I ended up going to karaoke, dancing and playing guitar on stage lol

I'm back to work this week, so I'm refreshed and feeling excited about my next adventure. I have noticed I'm getting a lot more attention from the ladies recently. Lots of girls in work and chatting me, while also some want to catch up for a drink...even 1 girl asked me "when are you taking me for dinner?" I guess the story's got out in the office of my marriage, however, I don't want a pity party, or rush into anything. I'm happy being me again. I missed me. I'm looking well, new clothes and shirts that fit really well.

I have no update in regards to WW. She hasn't made any contact since Mid-Feb, about the D, While also I haven't received any legal letters as she communicated to me over 6 1/2 weeks ago which were coming. I do think it was strange she tried calling me during Valentines weekend, especially asking for information, which tbh she already had back in October, when she received the legal letter from my Solicitor.

I was a little drunk during the holidays and took a look at her FB... i know i shouldn't, but I did notice there have been no updates really since last Autumn 2018. All our photos are still up, while also she has no relationship status either. No pictures of him either. There was 1 photo of her from late January 2019, however, she didn't look good and looked very stressed at the time. That's the first time I have looked at her FB since last October.

I certainly don't hate her, I think I'm at a point now where I just don't care anymore. She's still legally my wife and in my heart, I still love her. It doesn't consume my thoughts 24/7 as it did a few months ago.

I guess she is still with her AP, who knows. But she certainly hasn't reached out to me for R, or at least properly apologize for all the crap she's put me through since last summer. Maybe she never will, but I'm glad that I did all the thing's you guys recommended.

Her Bday is next week, however, I don't really think it's going to do any good reaching out, especially while she wants a D and is probably still with her AP. I mean, why do i want to open myself up to more communication again. I established my boundaries.

I detached, did 180's and GAL, worked on myself. For me. I know I will be fine now, regardless of what happens.

I hope you're all doing well. I know for some it's early day's yet, but there is light at the end of the tunnel.