Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

With my current state of mind being very dark of late is signing the D papers contestable?

Or am I grasping at anything like a drowning man flailing for a purchase?

I know there are so so many who love or at least care more than she does right now. Yet if I were to explain it I would try this. Imagine a see-saw. Mrs. Turbine in on one side and is right next to the balance point. Everyone else is on the other side as far away as possible. Care to guess which side is hard on the ground?

Mrs. Turbine is hard on the ground. My head can process this but my heart... the Hulk in full rage ain't close to power.

Pretty messed up huh... How do I flip that switch? Because I have to if I am to survive and have a chance at R.