It went well at the event last night. Cordial. Youngest was playing up a bit, and H took charge of it and took him home early, and had also brought a gift to make Eldest's achievement. It felt so nice us all being together in the house. I was sad when he went home. I think I got a bit needy and clingy - I asked him to tell me exactly what he meant when he said he wanted to 'work on things' when his project was done, and he was a bit impatient about that (it was late and he was tired and wanted to go and sleep).
I think seeing him more, and more cordially, and seeming to make progress, makes me feel MORE vulnerable in some ways. And that makes me take the attention of myself and my own GAL and 180s and put it on him, and wanting assurances and change from him to make me feel content and safe. I need to watch for that.
