I had a pretty decent weekend. Went to an outdoor concert last night with a GF, got stuff done around the house, went to church, planted some flowers. Just normal stuff. About 4:00, I found myself obsessing about H and our sitch, so I decided to go back to this local festival to listen to another band. Chatted with a nice couple next to me, then.....I saw my Hs OW's H and her BF! They were with some other people too. Ugh! I went to escape, and there they were. I couldn't stop looking their way. I think they saw me, but I didn't approach them. It kind of ruined the whole thing.
I'm getting sick of this whole situation. Up. Down. Peace. Anxiety. Confident. Fearful. Forward. Backward. *sigh*
I reached out to my therapist for a regrouping. I need better tools to detach. I know D will not help me detach, that it is something separate to be done on it's own but sometimes I just want it to be over.
Starting Month 7 tomorrow, and my 28th wedding anniversary looms in May. It's too much.
I know if I reread all my old posts there would be plenty of positive, moving forward experiences shared in those words. I just don't feel them to be true right now.
