Oh Yail. I am so sorry that you feel like this. But you have been through worse. And you will get through this. Your feelings right now are completely understandable. You go for months with little contact, feel like you’re doing ok, and then wham, it hits you again. But, I’m although it has the same intensity it will pass much quicker. I promise - each stin hurts as much as the first, but it won’t stay as long. Feel it, understand where it comes from and then get back up and just keep going. You can do this.
Your heart is broken. But time and distance will help it to heal. You are doing so so very well. Read your gratitude posts again. What you felt on those days are still valid today, even more so. You are building a life, fostering friendships, and joining a wonderful community. You are becoming the Yail you were always meant to be.
Get up. Keep going.
I know what you mean about the ring. I took mine off the day he moved out and I regretted it every second it was off. I put it back on after Christmas. I still loved him. I am still married. I wear it because that is where I am at. Plan B maybe but I am being honest with myself. If that’s where your at, then bloody wear it. But wear it for you. Take it off when you are ready and not a moment before.
We are here with you Yail. You are young and in love and sometimes, love [censored]. But if that’s who you are, then [censored] own it. Control you. Be you. Because you are clever and inspiring and caring and kind. Those things have nothing to do with your W.
