Divorce and Acceptance Part 4

[Pax_luv]

Hey KML, thanks for the suggestions.
I still haven’t pulled the trigger on the OLD. For some reason, I’ve become very untrusting of the sites and people on them. . I know it’s me and I should just do it. I used match a couple years ago (1yr post split and had good interactions). Sadly I just can’t afford it right now! I think my hesitation is just some more residual stuff from my sitch, but trust I’m ready to push through.

So it’s another riveting night at the house o’ Pax. It was an absolutely gorgeous day today and I was able to spend some time outdoors. It was nice.

I decided to spend the rest of the afternoon cleaning up my closet and putting the winter stuff away. I have wayyyyy too much crap/ clothes. I need to get rid of at least 50% of my belongings and even then, I know I’d still have a ton of clothes. I have a medium size apartment that has a walk in closet. It’s not huge by any means but it is filled to the brim with stuff. In addition to clothes and shoes, it has my various size backpacks, purses, luggage, sleeping bags, etc. And that does not bring me joy! I’m all about the kon Mari and I know that clutter blocks my good energy! I need to pull the trigger there as well to overhaul the wardrobe. The thing is, I actually do wear a lot of clothes. For work, I mostly wear suiting, which is just a lot of pieces. I have a lot of blazers and they are heavy and take up a lot of room. Then, I have my workout clothes. I have a lot of work out clothes!! It’s needed when you do 2-a-days. Then I have my lounge clothes for when I’m vegging at home. Then I have my weekend clothes which is also lounge clothes that I don’t mind wearing in public, jeans, or sundresses, etc and the occasional “going out” attire and cocktail dresses for my after hour events. Bleh. It’s too much.

I’ve toyed with the idea of getting rid of all my pants and blouses so I could just get by wearing dresses and blazers. It doesn’t get too cold in the winter here and I usually can make do with knee high boots and trench coats to keep warm. But as I look at some of my outfits, I realize that i do like them and I want to keep them. Bla bla bla.

Anyway...if your eyes aren’t bleeding yet from reading that nonsense.... it’s just all part of the journey of recreating a life that brings us lbs’s true joy and peace and meaning in the long run.


In addition to the very important apparel musings... I’ve also been sorting out some upcoming trips. I’m super excited to be invited back on a medical mission in the fall. I’m very much looking forward to that. Also my bestie just invited me to join her on her trip to Maui in the summer. She has a time share and will have a room going completely unused so she offered it up to me. I would just have to fork up the air faire. I would love to make it happen. I have 13 weeks of vacation on the books that I should definitely use! Just hoping my financials are in a better place by summer.