I've dealt with crisis all my life, a lot because I've even learned to create crisis to then 'solve'. I ruminate and always feel like I should be doing something. Very little stillness.
Do you think you created the crises b/c you would feel better when you solved it?
I wonder if you are thinking too much about how you feel. Know what I mean? Like, however you feel each day should be examined and determined why you feel a certain way. You know that old saying, "He must have gotten up on the wrong side of the bed"? Sometimes we just feel blah for no reason.
How old were you when your parents divorced? I'll have to admit that reading about your dad makes me feel a range of emotions. There are a lot of kids who have been really challenged by their upbringing.
I've learned being in a M for a long time, doesn't mean it necessarily gets easier.......you just have different challenges. Life is always changing. People change. The future finds a way of surprising us. The only thing you can control is you.
Have a great week! ((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
