Hit by the dreaded ILYBNILWY part 2

[mikeyb]

Don't try to be there when she comes around just to have a chance talk, it won't work out like you want it to. You'll get over the affair Mikey. Just try to see her for who she is, not who she was. Read Davide's thread for a how-to on working through your emotions. It takes time.

Take your space, don't pursue. If she ever changes her mind you'll know.

I wasn't intentionally trying to be here when she came by. Just because of no contact she didn't know I was off, i didn't feel I needed to let her know I was taking the day off. She saw that I was home and just left, sent me a text later giving me hell for being home and not telling her so she could have kept the car another day, but it's whatever I ignored the text and didn't respond.

I've been doing better being by myself, the loneliness is starting to fade. I miss her, but I'm managing it. Been sleeping better as well the last few days. I still haven't had any contact with the W, besides the text she sent and me sending a simple text apologizing for my behavior when I found out about the EA. I was a bit of a jerk, but my emotions were holding the steering wheel. I should have walked away and addressed it later, but I didn't. So I felt an apology was needed when I thought about how I reacted.

Other than that, nothing else has changed. Stressing out more and more about my financial situation because I have no idea if she plans to give the landlord a 30 day notice or not on the 1st which would give me 1 month to figure out what the heck I'm going to do.