So, I'm back home. Flights got all messed up yesterday, so it was a very long trip. W said she wanted to pick me up from the airport, but when my arrival got severely delayed I told her not to worry about it and got an Uber.

It's weird. W left me the MBR without me asking, and just yelled "hi" from the guest room when I came in. This morning, she barely talked as we both got ready. I took the dog on a walk in the morning, and when I got back in she said, "can we talk about logistics tonight?". I said I have plans (just a workout, but didn't tell her that), but I'll see. She didn't look me in the eye, really look at me at all, or ask me any questions about my month long trip or travel back. I have to admit I look really good right now with all of my healthy eating and consistent work outs, but she literally does not see me.

I got an email from her a few hours later asking if I'd have dinner to "talk about everything moving forward". I was planning to be home anyway at the time she proposed, so I said yes. I'm going in expecting the worst, but I will only validate and state my boundaries. I'll control my emotions, and be confident and attractive.

I'm in a much better place mentally than I was before I left home, but it's still hard. She really isn't my W anymore. I signed up for a woodworking class tomorrow (totally out of my element), and I'll be meeting up with a friend that I haven't seen in a few months afterwards. I'll probably take the dog on a hike Sunday, if not Saturday too. I want to do A LOT this week, but I also have to prepare for my SE Asia trip - I leave on Thurs...


Me 36, W 32
M 3 yrs, T 7 yrs
1st BD Aug 18
2nd BD Feb 19
EA w/ ex Aug 18
potential EA Feb 19
Trial Separation 3/2/19