It's just a sixth sense I have now after reading hundreds of sitches.
I think that now that you are starting to understand that this is not going to play itself over night your'e realizing you have time to work on yourself and see how this plays out.
My ex broke down in our first MC appointment saying "I always feel like I am walking on eggshells." That's when I first realized this wasn't going to be fixed anytime soon. My needs weren't being met and I was passive aggressive which I wasn't even aware of the term at that point.
Four and a half years ago I went to stay at my friends for a night after I found out about my exs EA. I thought it would be fixed and everything would go back to normal by the end of the weekend. Four and a half years later I am still getting use to my new normal.
