Turbine. I hear you. There are times where I myself fluctuate between staying focused on what I have to do. (Packing things, fixing all the problems in my life, time, IC, sleep, house car, managing time, finances, things, selling house, praying to God) It feels like God. How do I put this? He is always there for me, to listen to me, but I have trouble connecting and relating to him and his ways in this broken world.
I am learning behaviorally, how to behave more and be obedient to his testanents, covenants, and words, try to be kinder, more patient, forgiving, understanding, some not so much as far as habitual sins.
I keep reading about having the faith of a mustard seed can move mountains, and only if we just trust him according to his plan for us. We will be blessed. Allow him time to do his work in you, and with others. But still there is the flip side of each individual having their own thoughts, beliefs, free will, and plans aside. He cannot control us, or others, but he can change us if we allow him to.
All inspiring yet frustrating. I don't know how much i can really change.
