WooHoo kid-free weekends!! Me too this weekend DV6!!
I know for many folks new here how horrible that might sound, but with time as you move through your sitch you will get there as well. For sure there's a period of sadness then guilt you have to get through, but once you see that your kids survive, thrive and are doing just fine you really start to value it just like FlySolo says. And she's 100% right, when D4 comes back to me, I'm ready for us to go full throttle having fun. It is IMPOSSIBLE seemingly at first to believe that the actions of your WW may in fact make you happier. You will fight the logic in your head when you whisper to yourself "you know maybe WW was right, this IS for the best". That is a confusing pill to swallow. I simply rewrote my acceptance of the new arrangement away from my WW being right and more to the idea that this path in my life was simply the path my life was always meant to travel. It is HARD to grant yourself the grace needed to shift the gears through this quickly, but with time you will make it through.