Another day... another dollar... lol. My STBXH randomly texted me today about my holiday asking a few questions. I sensed ulterior motive. Sure enough... he tells me that an offer he put on a house was accepted and that it is basically three blocks away from mine... a 48 second drive...apparently my son wanted to time it. Surprisingly...it doesn’t bother me in the least. In fact, I am super happy about it as it will be the perfect set up for the kids. They will always be near their friends and their school(s). So...I think he wanted me to know but also wanted to let me know when his subject removals are as it will be before the 30 day time limit I have to get him his money. Meeting with my mortgage broker tomorrow after work so should be able to get his money next week sometime. Happy to do it. Just want to move on.
Still talking to Facebook guy every day. For the life of me, I don’t know what I am doing with him...lol. We talk about the strangest things...lol. Tinder guy sent me a picture of his dog today when I was busy at work. I still have not replied and now it is too late as I would look like a total jerk. I probably already do...lol. I was hoping he would just lose interest but that doesn’t seem to be happening. Sigh...
Plenty of Fish is turning out to be a bit of an annoyance lately. It’s just too much work...lol. And what is up with 30 year-olds pretending to be 50 year-olds so they can date an older woman?? Mommy issues? I refuse to date anyone I could reasonably have given birth to...lol. “Jack”, who is 38 [okay I would have been a 13 year-old mother so many not reasonably have been able to give birth to him] has volunteered to be my revenge affair. Too funny. The silly thing is...if I wanted to have a revenge affair, that would imply that I still cared about what my STBXH was up to...that I wanted to get back at him. I realized today that I actually don’t care enough to want revenge. I am just happy for my kids that they are going to be able to always be in their neighbourhood. Now that, my friends, is detachment!!! Thank the maker... I have made it through to the other side!!!
My STBXH made a comment to me the last time I saw him... something about it looking like he was “ahead” because he has a girlfriend... or something to that effect. I didn’t really think about it at the time but I did later. It is funny to me that he thinks he is ahead. Let’s see... he lies his a$$ off for close to five years and misses 80% of his kids lives during that time. He has had at least one affair but I know there has to have been others even if he will never admit it. He then has his final affair with a 37 year-old who looks 50 and whose insides are for sure that old given all her medical problems, he moves in with her and becomes “dad” to her two teenagers and reduces himself back to a 25% dad to his own kids, ruins what relationship he had with his 19 year-old daughter because he cheated on the only person she considers to be a reliable parent, he had no debt and money to spare and now he is going to have a large mortgage and he has jumped from one “committed” relationship right into another without a breath in between. With all of that... he thinks he is ahead. So then there is me... living in my beautiful home with a smallish debt that won’t cramp my style all that much, I get to be on my own 50% (eventually) of the time, I am dating with no shortage of options, meeting tons of new people, I’ve lost 40 pounds and am getting back into shape, I’m standing on my own two feet and living my life for ME. Now I ask you ladies and gentlemen, who is ahead in this game. STBXH... I am soooo far ahead, I can’t even see you anymore!!! Gawd I love my life right now...lol.
Listen... all you LBS’s who think you have lost something because your lame ass husband (or wife) decided someone out there offered him/her a better life... LET THEM GO!!!! The sooner you do, the better off you will be. I was DEVASTATED when my H left... DEVASTATED. I never thought I would be here in a million years. But when the dust settles and the fear subsides, it is amazing how clearly you start to see things. You DO NOT need someone else to define you or make you happy. You don’t. You are enough just the way you are. Make yourself happy and let your S go... it will end up being the best and smartest thing you EVER did.
