I thought I should do a quick update . We have still been spending a lot of time together. My intel has been pretty accurate and I have kept things checked with some outside help . Now I feel as if I am beginning to not care and will let her go . With all the self care and working out at the gym I have a certain vigour building, I haven’t had the joy of being intermit with a lady for a long while and it has been a bit unpleasant with some leakage !!! ( gross)
I am contemplating whether it is a good thing to R as I don’t think I will be able to forgive and forget easily what has occurred. It seems unfair that I give and never receive. This is a big issue with how I behave, always giving , listening and understanding, when no one reciprocates . If I give any truth out it always ends I tears and I think I am beginning to not care .
How good it would be to have a kind caring partner. Without this forum I honestly believed there were no good people out there .
I will not settle for any Relationship that is not 2 way . I just see so many selfish people in this world and I think I need to understand where like minded people will be that I can interact with .
Next step is to get into meditation and see where that takes me . Love to all you good people
