Just catching up on your sitch. What if he doesn't get the job?
LH19, thanks so much for checking in on me! Giving you a round of hugs!
Re: your question what if he doesn’t get the job. It’s funny because he asked me the same thing. At first I hadn’t thought too much about that. I was so focused on letting him know I’m not going to sit by and wait for him. Of course I was a bit angry as well. I’m still a little upset about it to be honest. However, I stand by my statement.
So if he does or doesn’t get the job, I’ll continue to work on me. Which is what I’m doing. It’s obvious to me that he’s trying to run. Nothing I say or do will change that. Rather than do the work he needs to do on himself, he’s trying to run. His IC advised against it but true to my H’s form, he has to learn things the hard way.
So over the past few days I’ve been wondering if I should still stand for the M. The fact that he’s looking for jobs in other states and rescheduling IC appointments makes me feel like he’s not willing to do the work. He stood in my face 4 weeks ago and told me that he’s going to work on being a better man. Thankfully I’m learning to not trust what he says. I don’t see any evidence of him trying to be a better man. I mean maybe he thinks he’s doing that when he’s alone at night in his room. Who knows.
I’ve done many 180’s, I’ve been and continue to work on improving myself. Then I look at him and I see him doing nothing. That makes me wonder, why am I standing?
He’s from one thin to the next. So I guess the real question is, if he doesn’t get the job, what will he do next? And only God knows.
Last edited by Living; 03/27/1906:11 PM.
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
