Divorce and Acceptance Part 4

[Pax_luv]

OneArt,
Thanks for the reply on my last thread. This is the second time he’s been sanctioned and yep the judge has gotten wise to the antics. Thank goodness.


So, just a personal reflection...
I’ve spent the last close to 4 years becoming a woman only a fool would leave. I think I’ve done a pretty good job thus far but know I will always be a work in progress.

One of the things I’m not skilled at is keeping a balanced life. I find it hard to have work, gym, friends, extracurriculars etc all balanced. So, I’m someone who focuses on certain buckets for weeks at a time. But I end up stressing myself out since I can’t keep all slices of the pie the same. For example, I’ll spend time focusing on the gym and then get stressed out because I’m not focusing on my social life, so then I redirect attention and then the gym goes by the wayside. I know there’s things I could do better to balance it out. 100% I know it’s me, but it’s something I’m working on.


With that I have been wanting to go back to school for a while now. I just can’t decide if I want a PhD or a masters in a different field. I like school and I wouldn’t mind going back... I can’t afford it right now, I would have to get a loan.... but I’m wasting my time. Notice the direct contradiction of what I stated above!!!

Anyway, i know if I go to school, other parts of my life will go by the wayside. And...... another big thing that I have not prioritized is dating. I want a baby daddy eventually because I’m not getting younger and my eggs are drying up by the second, but I haven’t made it a priority to go out and meet anyone.

So what does this mean? I need to be better at balancing and I need to put myself out there. I think even if I’m interested in someone, I still owe it to myself to date multiple people just to understand what’s really out there. I don’t dislike dating, I just haven’t prioritized it.

Ok, so that’s a bunch of ramblings that make no sense. I guess at the end of the day, this is all a blessing to have too many good things to keep integrated into a balanced life.

So with that... what do you think is the best dating app for a busy professional, who is old fashioned, and wants to avoid creepers?