Thanks for your insight. I value it more than you can know. I really don't think I'd be in the relatively good place I am now if I didn't have the support from people like you, and of course others on this board, and the insight you have from having traveled this road.
I realize I'm impatient. Whether H filed for D tomorrow, or waits for another year, or never, I still need to travel this road at my own pace, pay attention to all the yield and caution signs, and even stop once in a while. Eventually I'll get to the road that will take me into my future. I need to remember this is independent of H's journey.
6 months seems like a long time to still have all of these ups and downs. My friends here will say 6 months is just the beginning. I suppose that's true.
I realized today that I spend a lot of energy and time worrying about what H might be doing, spying a bit in the phone records and elsewhere, and peeking at his FB page. I am going to work on just living in the moment this week. Not dwelling about the future or what it might bring. And using my time for more productive, interesting things.
