(((Krull))). I am so sorry for what you are going through. Please know that there are many, many people out there pulling for you. The sadness and grief is very normal. It is horrible that you can’t see your son. The selfishness of some people is so unbelievable. I am not sure your W is worthy of your affection if she can keep your son away from you like that. We are all pulling for you Krull. I know it seems impossible right now but time and space really does help...whether you want it to or not. Please, please, please...if you start to have suicidal thoughts, call your local crisis line. You WILL get through this...you just need to give it some time. (((HUGS)))
So, against my wallet I went to get help, I am not really sure about taking pills since they made my depression worse, I did some research on natural treatments and it seems to be working so far, I am still sad and I miss them like crazy but I do not feel like I want to end my life, I still stay really busy, working out, taking my meditation classes, also meditating at home. Going out and the nightlife does not work for me, I tried to go out and be social but I just can't be around drunks and their shallow point of view, maybe my journey has become a quest for more than just be a person with a smile on the outside and a funeral on the inside.
