Zues, he is definitely protective and deliberate. Which I respect. Maybe he enjoyed it too and feelings were kind of strong and he wants to slow this down and make sure he isn’t acting hastily. I really do appreciate and hope your positive version is true.
Part of me is freaking because I also brought my daughter into this. And she really likes him and his son. And I do think he takes into account the fact about how I feel regarding that and wouldn’t be spending time with my daughter this weekend.
I need to do something different this time. I need to majorly back off and not show my insecurity and let him come to me. I’m going to give him the space. Maybe I need some mental space too. I care deeply for him. It’s tough.
In the meantime, I took a loan out against my 401k and my surgery set and I opted for the more expensive option but one that will be worth it in the long run.
I think I’m a bit vulnerable right now too. Sensitivities are running high.
