I haven't been back on for a few months. I've been seeing if things improve and trying to get me back. I've been seeing my own therapist, as is DH and I am looking at a career change and beginning classes next month. DH is still the same, if not worse. He threatens to leave and doesn't. He admitted last week to an emotional affair and an attraction to her. No physical affair, and I do believe that for now. I have never felt so alone and helpless. It's like he had a mental breakdown. And we have a family trip planned - I figured I'll see how he is and make the decision after. Has anyone held on to see their spouse come thru and fight their marriage? I'm so hurt by him but would be willing to make it work. He refuses couples counseling for now.