Dropping in to say hi and been reading your posts. Saw you were having a rough week. Sorry to hear about that.
30 years together? That is a long time. I've been with my W for 25 together. Things changed more noticeably after her father passed away 2 years ago and she got her stupid tat. I've seen several posts about people getting new tattoos later on in life, getting a new look etc.
Get out and GAL for yourself. Try not to focus on anything about your H, his flat, what he's doing etc. That'll cause you to spin and feel sick.
As for not being able to wait years for physical affection, I'm on 7 months and it feels like it was yesterday that she BD me. I can't tell time, that's how I truly feel. So I don't know how much longer I can or cant go. I do know when I hit another month It gets rough. The 6 month mark was really rough for me so I don't like dates, calendars, none of it.
You're right, life is too short, so go now and live a little. Get away from the mess and have some fun. Here's to the weekend.
H 49 , W 47 T 23, M 17 S11, S5 BD: 7/18 IHS: 7/18 - 3/19 Physically Separated: 3/19-4/19 Piecing: 4/19 - Current
