Got a copy of the signed separation agreement emailed to me by my lawyer today. She also let me know that his lawyer told her she would be starting divorce proceedings on or about May 1st... our fake separation date. Probably for the benefit of the girlfriend but honestly, I am happy about it. I just want it to be over and done with so I can put all of this in the rear view mirror. Funny...when I got the email, I thought back to how I would have felt three or four months ago and it is nothing like what I felt today which was, oddly enough, almost nothing. He is in Hawaii with his affair and you would think that it would really, really bother me but no... I don’t feel much about it at all... good or bad. I think this is what it means to be detached. I’m not angry, I’m not sad, I’m not anything. I am just me living my life.
So...back home from our vacation and it feels really, really good to be back in MY house. Like how I capitalized “my”...lol. It really is my house... no longer ours. I do so love this house.
The end of our journey home involved a two-hour ferry ride. Ran into an old high school friend I haven’t seen in years and we spent the whole trip chatting and catching up. I told her about my dating adventures and my crazy marriage. She remembers Facebook guy and thinks he might have played hockey with her younger brother. Didn’t hear from him a whole lot today as I was in transit for most of the day and honestly, we were bound to have at least one day when we weren’t in as much contact. He had a hockey game tonight and did message me at the end of the night that he got a goal and for me to have a great sleep. I also heard from Tinder guy. He wants to have coffee this weekend. I told him I would get back to him tomorrow to let him know which day works best for me. I am still really on the fence with him as he is way too familiar in what he texts considering we have never met before. I am kinda hoping he doesn’t really like me too much when he meets me.
Getting tired so will write more at a later date. (((HUGS))) to all...
