You're overthinking this big time. I'd focus on that last phrase "this is who I really am" and start believing that bc like most LBSs you think she's the old gal.
Quit paying attention to her a d go do awesome stuff with your life.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.