Confusion is my middle name...

[Coly23]

Hi All, just stopping by as I saw a shout out by Bluwave on SKM's thread. Been reading along but not sure if I have much to contribute at the moment.

Roist Job, One, thanks for your posts above. I managed to calm down after my little flip out! I think I was just a bit blindsided by H's actions and very shocked! The good news is that H has a job again but it's only temporary for three months with the possibility of a extension. It pays very well so hopefully he is putting that towards paying off some of his debts.

As for me, I'm just plodding along at the moment. Not much going on with H although he seems much more comfortable around me when he comes over. Still doesn't always reach out on his own accord but comes running if I ask him for tea etc. He isn't as secretive about his life as much as he used to be and readily tells me what he has been up to and what he is going to be doing so that's different.

D is doing well. I'm very proud if the young woman she has become.

Sorry if I have been a bit rubbish posting. I find that as soon as I get on here my anxiety starts up again so I try to keep it to a minimum. I always make sure I pop in to check up in you all and to see how you are all doing. Sometimes it is very painful reading the posts from newcomers and that's when I know I have to step away. It's strange but i thought that would have gotten better but it hasn't. Maybe someone has a take on that?

Anyway, happy Thursday everyone!