paperwork was concluded 2 days ago and i am completely at peace with it. as i've said before, i don't feel anything towards my W anymore, good or bad. only real focus for me now is D4 and my immediate future. rather surreal how turbulent "the tunnel" can be while you're in it, but then once you come out the other side...the absence of pretty much anything beyond yourself and your children...
ok, i do feel something...i'm excited for the new baseball season and the ability to enjoy it completely free from the burden of the tunnel I've been "carrying in my mind" for better than a year now. for all of the pain, heartbreak, loss...there is seemingly a rebirth of self at the conclusion of all of this. i read somewhere on here the "fire" of this process will forge your self into a stronger entity than when this first began and I very much agree with that.
anyway...it's kinda like i'm back out in the light now and just kinda catching my bearings/looking around...i'll grant myself time and patience for the present and with God's grace steadying my path forward, i'll look to the future I want for myself while maybe one day with the benefit of hindsight, I'll be able to make sense of this chapter in my life that's now passed.
