On Thursday night we went to the fair with our son, while we were there H was on his phone quite a bit. Later that night I checked his text messages:

H to OW: I called you but no answer, you must be too busy out partying with your friends, or you just don't want to talk to me.

OW to H: Whatever, you are the one pushing me away.


On Friday night H told me he was going out, cause he hasn't 'gone out' in a while. In otherwords he hadn't seen OW for over a week (the longest time since this started).
Before he left he hugged me tight, then he came back and kissed me, he kept finding reasons to linger. Finally he left. He called me three times while he was out with her.

On Saturday, I was a bit cautious cause I figured that they would have made up and he would be pushing me away, but that wasn't the case. H came home early and said that he was going to stay out longer with OW, but he knew that I like to eat with him so he came home to see me. We got had a really late breakfast.

H told me that he was going out again that night, but he had to go early. I asked him what time was 'early'. He said around 7pm. Then he said that he wanted to spend the day with me on Sunday and we could go to the fair and go shopping at the booths etc... I said I would like that. Then he said that he wanted to have dinner with me tonight before he left to go out. I said sure.

H came home around 6:30, we went to Red Lobster. He suggested we order wine. By the time we were eating it was around 7:30. H got a phone call, it was OW, but he ignored it. Then he mentioned to me that he was actually supposed to be 'there' at 7pm. I commented that I would dump him if he did that to me. We started laughing at the absurdity of it. Then H told me that 2 months ago, he would have left right away to be with her, but that now he is enjoying spending time with me, so he isn't going to rush to be with her. I asked him what reason he was going to give to her for being late? He said he would tell her that he was having dinner. I didn't push to find out if he would mention it was with me...We didn't end up leaving the restaurant until 8:30, which means that he arrived at OW 2 hours late!! (ha!) He called me twice that night.

Early Sunday morning, there was an emergency at his brothers house. My sister-in-law asked if I could get her kids and take care of them for a while. I said sure. I called my H, he said he was on his way there. He got there the same time as me. He hugged me and thanked me for helping.

When there is a problem, he knows that he can count on my support, that he can turn to me, I doubt he can say the same thing for party-girl OW....

We didn't end up having time to go shopping at the fair, so we went for drinks instead. We had a good time. H told me that he understands a lot more about our relationship and his depression. He said after learning what he has learned that he wishes he had never strayed. But he also said that he wishes he was sure of his feelings, like he was a few months ago. I asked what was he sure of then? He said
that he was sure he didn't want to be with me then. But now he is not sure of anything. I am glad that he is admitting his feelings to me, and I am glad that he is no longer convinced that his feelings for me are gone...moving in the right direction...slowly....