Has anyone here been a jerk/a-hole to their WS leading up to BD? How long until the guilt of your actions no longer weighed you down? When did you forgive yourself?
Pretty sure I was worse than you by a long shot buddy. R2C is right. At some point you have to let go of what you did wrong and what she did wrong.
It's part of moving on, pain wise. Right now, you're still "carrying-on" with your W marriage wise but you can let go of that hurt if you try.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.