Friday night he usually goes out with OW, but he didn't we stayed home and he suggested we get a bottle of wine and rent some movies. It was nice. I checked his phone and OW sent him this text message:

I am sorry that you are pushing me away, I love you very much.

He sent her one too: Please understand that I am very confused right now, but I do love you too.

On Saturday I asked him why he didn't go out on Friday. He said that he didn't feel like it, that he wanted to stay home with us. Then he asked me if I think that he and OW are having trouble? I said I don't know, are you? He said no, but that it was inevitable. I asked him what he meant by that. He said because she is going to want more from him. I asked him if she is pressuring him, he just shrugged his shoulders. WOW, it's true that it doesn't matter what you say, they need to figure it out on their own. I told him at the beginning (6 months ago) that this would start to happen, well good, let her keep pressuring him.

That being said, he went out with her on Saturday night, no text messages
On Sunday he told me that he missed me very much, but that he didn't get a chance to send me any messages.

Sunday evening my parents and my brother and friends came over for dinner, it was fun then at night the two of us went out... H told me that he feels much closer to me than he did a month ago, he also said he is scared that he is starting to fall for me again, that he doesn't want to cause then he will be even more torn...

D'bing is working to make him see that he can be happy with me too. Being his friend and lover has worked out good for us, so far. Hopefully, OW will continue to pressure him,
and I will keep working on being the one he wants to be with. Although it is hard to keep the balance. I don't want him to get comfortable and think that he can cake-eat for too much longer. I know that balance has shifted in my favour, and although I saw all of this coming, H is only now started to understand what I have been telling him about OW and how their situation is leading to nowhere...

Please keep your figures crossed for me, over the next few weeks, I hope H will keep getting closer to me, that I won't need to resort to anything drastic, like moving out etc... to make him choose...