[some really, really good stuff in here Phoenix. My favorite portion was this:
Originally Posted by Phoenix9
I don't think I used this term to describe my feelings, but I feel like I am still holding a grudge. I know I shouldn't. I know I need to stop. I need to accept that some things in life are not fair and that I have to make peace with that.
I'm experiencing this as well. Every time I have this feeling I repeat to myself, "And this is one of those times in life that Yail might not get what she wants".
Because really, who am I to get everything I want in life? No better or worse than any other human on this planet. We're going through a really big loss, but just because we want something doesn't mean we get it. It's a really tough lesson to practice.
Keep practicing it. I think it might help you with your grudge-like feelings. Your awareness on this is impressive.
