[JujuB]

Thanks don. I think in hindsite, I should not have gone for him. We were too different. It was apparent after that first vacation. I just went into it thinking that because we were both committted and loyal types that we could make it work. I didn’t think compatibility meant as much as shared morals. But I was wrong.

Ex bf went through similar relationship h@ll that I did. That was part of the apppeal. I felt like he would get me. But i am not sure if 2 people that were traumatized can love someone enough again to go through the loss of pride of chasing someone that ended something. He already did that in the past as did I. I will never do that again and he won’t either. He didn’t do it with his other exes. I don’t think love like that is possible. We didn’t have just normal, mutual break ups. There was deception and gaslighting and double lives and the big one being abuse. It kills a part of your ability to give yourself fully to someone.

I’m sad and I do want a partner but I have to get my confidence back. Get out of the depression I guess. Today I was home sick and that certainly didn’t help. Thanks again! I appreciate your input and honesty.