Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Thing is she is the centerpiece in my mind and heart. The rest... all around her.
What good is it to have the house she wanted and move to a smaller one she would have picked and now won't happen short a miracle?

I'm not in a good mood this morning and it is temporary. I paid the mortgage and it would have been on time. Payment was refused. So now I have to call the mortgage company and go to the bank at lunchtime.

Keep trying Turbine... the end is near. End of what?
Foxtrotting terminally stupid monster got some reinforcements and I feel like I'm loosing ground.

I still love her. Haven't dropped the rope or apparently any of the rest of whatever I should be doing to DB. Really want a hug from her.

Maybe time to pack her stuff for her. I would be careful with her stuff although many wouldn't.