Just journalling. A good night's sleep last night, though woke up feeling two entirely contradictory things - kind of needy and lonely and wishing he would reach out and show some affection or give some reassurance (no goodnight text last night, which made me think 'more of the same - he asks for something and I do it utterly consistently despite him throwing it back in my face - I ask for something and he can't be bothered about half the time') and a general contempt or dislike for him. It's strange to have those two feelings at once. I plan to concentrate on myself today.
